Life

Day 43, awaiting the call for Anna's double lung transplant.

While at a personal doctor's appointment in the last few weeks I saw this image on a magazine. I had to take a photo of it. It reminded me of something that happens in life when you are "out on a limb." It reminds me of believing in yourself and your actions and supporting yourself in extreme circumstances. It requires faith and trust, using all that you have, suspending the belief that you will fail or fall when things are difficult. I reminds me to be yourself and to not take your eye off the prize. There is a lot in this image. It also appears to be some kind of miraculous happening.

You know, like this image, life is so interesting. How we believe in and relate to ourselves, like the cat, and how we touch this web of personal interconnections can result in surprises. Every action we take or decision that we make may, in some way, significantly impact another. We usually do not know if we did something that was truly effecting another until time goes by and we see the result. When it does, it truly can make you wonder at how intricately we are connected. I just need to say that there are times when you are involved in things with out knowing and you do something innocent and then you look back and see that your action was significant. Makes you hmmmmmmmmmm..........

Meanwhile, as I leave that cryptic drama and step through the side curtain, I am back in Sunnyvale with Anna on the grand center stage. She has written on her blog that she is not feeling well and is tired. It does seem it may be time for a "tune up" at the hospital. Tomorrow is a CF clinic visit and she will discuss this with her doctor. Anna so wanted to get her lungs before she had to make another CF hospital stay. It doesn't look like that wish will be granted. It is important that she not let her strength dip too much, so IV antibiotics for three weeks is most likely in order.

Ho hum, not fun. She said that she needs the motivation and drive to want to do this. In past times before being on the list she was not working so hard everyday to stay well. She still had some wiggle room in her day, so to go in the hospital and work hard was OK. She knew that when she got out it was over and she could relax. That is not so now. She works hard everyday with her three treatments, etc. and being in the hospital will mean four treatments, plus the IVs, etc. It will be even harder work and when it is time to come home we will not be able to slack off. This is a marathon and we are going to finish it, but it is tiring and can at times feel grueling.

You can do it Anna. You have to do this to get to the prize. You so deserve to have new lungs one day. We must be patient. We must be willing to work hard. We must keep the big picture. It will happen, you must believe as the cat does...........